If you read my blog, you already know that I love food. What you might not know is that sometimes, especially lately for whatever reason, I really struggle finding a balance with how I eat. I genuinely enjoy eating healthy foods that make my body feel good. But I also really enjoy baking, candy, and eating foods that make my body feel (and look) like crap. Back when I was in high school, I used to work at Tim Horton’s (a donut shop, for those of you not from the Midwest/Canada) and I’d seriously eat half a dozen donuts every time I worked (and no, I’m not even joking). And I was running cross country and I was thin and everything was cool. Fast forward ten years, and I can definitely feel my metabolism slowwwwwing down. I can’t eat sweets the way I used to without gaining weight, my face breaking out, and just feeling gross. I feel like I’m constantly trying to find a balance between wanting to indulge my sweet tooth and not gaining 20 lbs. And it’s really not just about my weight. Honestly, I’m happy with myself and how I look no matter what the scale says, and I’ve never really struggled with low self-esteem. I have no desire to be stick thin, and I’m not trying to lose some crazy amount of weight or anything like that. Overall, I really just want to be healthy, feel good, and give my body the fuel it needs. And when I do that, I tend to weigh less than when I’m eating unhealthy, plain and simple. But it’s a constant battle for me because I genuinely love food/baking and I struggle with moderation. I’m not the girl that can make a batch of chocolate chip cookies and just have one, instead I’m eating the dough like it’s going out of style. I honestly feel like I was in the best place with my relationship with food at this time last year when Cam and I first started eating Paleo. We were really diligent with it 80% of the time and both felt really awesome, we lost weight, and then we allowed ourselves to indulge the other 20% of the time. I didn’t feel deprived, I felt like I was giving my body the nutrition it needed, and things were great. Then over time, we started to indulge more and more, we got busy with travel and the holidays, and all of the sudden, things were out of whack. I tried to get back on the wagon by doing a 21 Day Sugar Detox earlier this year. While I do think I learned some valuable lessons from that experience, overall, I really think it had somewhat of a negative effect because I’ve been eating very unhealthy since it ended. So now I’m trying to find a balance once again. I feel like it’s always going to be a little bit of a struggle for me because Cam and I travel so often. I’m always going to want to buy candy when we’re at the airport, I’m always going to want to have dessert every night when we’re on vacation, and I’m always going to want to stop in when we pass by a bakery. And while sometimes it’s OK to indulge, other times I need to choose the healthier option. Because that’s really what this is about, my health. I think I’ll always be working to find that balance, but I’m just going to try to make the best choices I can moving forward. Getting to bed at a decent time and making sure I get enough sleep. Drinking plenty of water. Stepping away from my computer, taking Lola for a walk and getting some fresh air. Eating real food and not stuff that comes from a box. And making sure that if I do indulge my sweet tooth, that it’s on something awesome that I’m really going to enjoy and not just some crappy candy in an airport because I’m bored. It’s a work in progress (and it feels good to get that off my chest).
Brevity is not my strong point. I talk a lot and struggle to be concise anytime I write something (for example, this post). My managers at work always give me a hard time because my emails tend to be short novellas. A girl of few words I am not.
I would love love love to move abroad. Europe would be ideal, but I’m honestly open to anywhere. I always wanted to study abroad in college, but decided not to because I didn’t want to give up time in Ann Arbor and thought I could travel after college. It ended up being a good decision because Cam and I started dating the semester I would have gone to study in Italy, so not going was definitely the right choice for me in hindsight…but I still have that burning desire to move overseas, at least temporarily. While Cam and I have been very blessed to do a lot of travel both in the US and internationally, I think there is something so different about living in a place than being on vacation. Living in Tahoe has really showed me that. So many people breeze in and out for a week at a time, but living here for over a year has really allowed me to see the beauty of this place in each season that you miss if you’re only here for a short time. I’d love to fully immerse myself in another culture and I think that having that experience with my husband would be so much fun. Many of my favorite bloggers are American ex-pats living around the world. I love living vicariously through their beautiful photos and travel stories I always think to myself “We could do that!” On one hand, I’m ready to just settle down here in the US, buy a house, have a baby, etc…but on the other, moving abroad is always my constant daydream that I’m not quite ready to let go of just yet.
Well hopefully that wasn’t TMI, but I enjoyed sharing a little bit more about me! (And hopefully you don’t think I’m totally neurotic after reading this, ha!) I’d love to read 5 things about YOU, so if you’ve done/are going to do one of these posts, leave a comment and let me know so I can check it out!
Have a great weekend everyone! Xoxo